Good "old days"

I have started going back to my "old things". Like the books I used to read, my family, my old freinds, my Yoga practices. It was as if I did never pay attention to them as I should have and I am wondering if this is going to be a cycle in my life. They say that only stupid people are like that. I mean you don't understand what you have untill it is gone . I am afraid this cycle is going to be repeated again and again.

I used to do a lot of meditation and only I thought it was totaly useless. But now that i have been away from that for almost 1 year or more I undretsnad how essential it is to make your mind quiet at least for 10 minutes aday. "The power of now" was just wonderful taking me away from my Current self, my current position to a non-defined status where only silence and being resided...

I am coming back to you all, Give me a big hug :)

Sorry for all these years..

There were some words between my sister and I tonight, just like the past 17 years, since she was born. when I think back I see that I have never ever grown up, changing the shell without really changing the inside or be insighful . Sorry that I have been such a selfish older sister throught these years, sorry for not imagining you as a naughty student but rather imagining you as a disaster who just has appeared to stop me from improving, sorry for not teaching you english and instead teaching to laods of people who i didn;t know very well. sorry for not hightening our inteligence both..

But i don not blame only myself, we pass on to our children and our younger siblings what we have been passed on to. Why some parents think that their ONLY job is to keep food in their children's mouths and send them to school and they have just done perfectly? perhaps because it is what they have ben passed onto !!

Teaching Our Children Well

as a 25-year old kid! i all the time look back and try to remember some of my childhood memories and make them all relevant to my current unwanted behaviours such as angriness , uneasiness , fatigue, lack of hope,depression and so on..

It is said that it is very easy to blame others and unlish the blame on ourselves, But sometimes it is really all about others, I am not going to be too pushy, But in this children training case who is to blame mostly except for the parrents itself?

Anyway, I got to spot some of the areas in my childhood that really hurt me now, Oneof them is this lack of being able to think effectively and come up with good decisions and results.. I have never ever been taught HOW to think and what is the phisolophy behind thinking at all..

Most of these thoughts lead me to get attracted to any kind of training, philiosophical, pedagogica or psychological issues regarding great ideas on children and adulthood thinking and life style..

Being a parent is deffinitely the most difficult task on earth, but the quations is whether I AM going to turn out to be a good mom knowing how to be a perfect symbol of a human being for her children or not??

Life

I am gratually believing in Donald Walsch's sentence that "we are all at cause in creating the events of our lives". I feel helpless sometimes. Going ahead and taking risks is so excitting and scary at the same time...